You know the saying...be the change you want to see... Well I feel a bit disappointed these days. I need to make a few changes and I am failing miserably. I had high expectations after having the baby as far as living a healthy life and getting fit.
'Being healthy' can certainly mean a lot of different things for different people. For me, this translates into good nutrition and overall well-being. I've never been a fan of extreme measures of any kind, most especially dieting, because I love to eat and enjoy the deliciousness of food. That being said, I've never felt better than a year and a half ago, pre-pregnancy, when I was juicing regularly, eating less sugary stuff and working out 3x a week with a really great personal trainer.
Ever since, I seem to have collapsed into the most sugar-filled phase of my life... I am eating sugary cornflakes with too much milk, cookies for breakfast, donuts, ice-cream, no 'living' food, actually most days it's no food until way late in the afternoon and I haven't used my juicer in ...well... I don't remember!
My husband and I are both struggling with this at the moment and it is just so darn hard to get motivated when both of us are feeling down about it. I am planning to watch again all the nutrition documentaries, since they really helped bring me on the right path last time I watched them.
I know the fundamental aspects of eating well, but for some reason I just don't... Which makes me really unhappy. This has nothing to do with weight loss
Working out is a major letdown for me... I just can't seem to be disciplined enough to get myself there... I need a trainer or an engaging set-up to make it happen. Maybe later on, after I will get somewhat addicted to it, I will be able to work out anytime, anywhere by myself, but right now it is just not happening. Good thing is that the Universe seems to listen to me and yesterday, as I was browsing our Abu Dhabi Groupon, I stumbled upon an offer for 5 Bikram Yoga sessions right here in my own backyard for a very very good price. So, not without hesitation, I bought the voucher. I always wanted to try it so: Here's hoping!
As far as 'well-being' goes, there are a few things that have been weighing on my mind, that have been making me a bit unhappy. Now I don't intend to get overly personal, nor is this space here meant for upsetting rants, but I must say...
A couple of months ago I had a bit of a clash with one of our newest family members. She felt things and I felt things and things erupted in a very unpleasant manner, in front of our entire family. Now, obviously I am not without a fault, people closest to me know that I can get a bit (
This is a person that knows nothing about me, has had no interest at all in getting to know me and most relevant part of it... we have spend close to 0 time together... So how could I have manage to cause her so much animosity is beyond me. I really don't have any problems with people not liking me or having different opinions than mine, but this is family and it matters to me a lot. It bothers me terribly to know that there is someone who has the wrong impression about who I am and acts accordingly. The thing that has been making me feel bad is not the actual occurrence that led to us having a lot of tension, but the fact that I was supposed to argue my point in a language that was foreign to me, therefor many things have been left unsaid on my part. I couldn't get through to this person and our discussion ended without any clarity... I hope at least posting it here will bring me some sort of relief, at least until we can meet again. In the meantime there are more important things for the both of us to focus on.
Another thing that makes me feel un-well these days is the to-do list that I have been neglecting. Starting with simple things like backing up my laptop so I can delete and make space for new pictures (
Also, I would like to be more active and shift my focus from the online world (blogs, instagram, vlogs) to the outside world and well...my own life. I watch other people document their lives instead of me doing the same to ours!
Now, my husband would say that we are doing way more stuff than other people anyway and that I suffer from comparatitis... meaning I am too easily impressed with all the nicely curated images I see online and it is affecting my self esteem. Yes, (
There you have it...a few regular imperfections.
I must make a small note: after putting my thoughts out there, I see that these are all pretty superficial issues especially when I look up at what is happening in the world, most of them not even worth attention, but it's some of the stuff that I had on my mind lately... Any thoughts? :)
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