Thursday, December 10, 2015

From the long-gone summer...

     I was absent for quite a while... I had some reasons, lack of time, inspiration, broken laptop, disorganized pictures, absolutely hate iphoto, etc, but mostly just excuses... I am determined to resume posting on the blog, even if it means ridiculously catching up from our trip to Europe this summer... now in December! I won't let the year finish without doing this...so here goes...

     Unfortunately the passing of time and my mommy brain make me not want to go into a lot of the finer details (like exact dates, for example), but we did a lot of traveling Abu Dhabi - Munich - Berlin - Romania - Munich - Riga... We checked two great family weddings, new cities, an awesome concert, visited all friends and family, it was a wonderful time...

     The first wedding was one that gave me all sorts of feelings... It was set in a splendid, lush, rustic decor, with really lovely touches, brought by the warm people that were there and mirrored the bride and groom's personality just beautifully... I enjoyed most of it...except...the parts I wasn't present at!

     In the short mommy life I have had until that point, this was the first time I ever wanted to break myself in two and be in two different places at once. I missed the ceremony, because baby needed a change and it was time for her nap... I missed some of the fun at the party because she needed breastfeeding and took longer than I anticipated, I ended the evening short, because she was whiny and sleepy and hungry and I was just tired and frustrated about it all... I consequently felt extremely guilty because I felt all of the above...

     Of course, after looking at my peaceful child sleeping, her breath so sweet and shallow, changed into comfortable clothes in our cosy hotel room, I finally gave myself a break... I realized that she is my number one priority now and I can not be the same person I was before having her, nor do I wish to be. I want to be a mom that does it all, but sometimes I just need to be the mom that is there, calm, patient and reassuring, responding to her child's most basic needs.

     It certainly was a beautiful, beautiful event and as much as I was able to take part at it, I wouldn't have missed it for the world. I wish the happy couple a lifetime of happiness, great accomplishments and love that lasts till the end of time...











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